Wine for your Whine?

Oh how I need this current Mommy Moment!

I love the sound of my daugther's cooes..makes me smile. As I sit here typing, she's cooing away in her crib...5 minutes after I put her down for the night. Is 4.5 months too early to start "testing" the parents?

Anyway- it's been an amazingly emotional week this week. I'm a stubborn, Yes - I- Can kind of woman that HATES admitting defeat (though I will do so where appropriate). This week= EPIC DEFEAT! I have to come out and say it..I AM DEFEATED- - PLEASE HELP. There, I did it, it's done, now you all know. Sigh.

I need help with the dishes, help with the laundry, help caring for Maria. I even need help getting out of bed after a hard work out. But you see, I'd rather refuse to admit that than ask for the help. So what does a person do that needs help and refuses to admit it...Meltdown!!! I had a major meltdown over an ice pack that didn't make it back to the freezer in it's respective time. Yup... total shut down...tears - pacing- mind racing "what should I do" ... MELT down. Oh how proud I am (not).

I got through it- my husband likely thinks I'm a nut case as a result- but I got it through. I asked for help and then went to bed. What did I get out of it: a few less things to do during the nightly routine, and one VERY CONFUSED husband.

Apparently, my "can do" attitude set a tone - one that I'm not too fond of. My husband believed that I never wanted help and thus he was just in the way; that he was taking my time away from Maria and that he would just watch from a distance. Yeah- there's a proud moment as a mother and a wife!

So, Pete & I are "re-designing" our roles as parents, partners and friends - I'm learning to ask for help before the falling leaf sends me into over drive, and Pete's trying to offer the help before he has a basket case on his hands. But let's be honest - what's really helping is the glass of wine that I pour when i'm getting over-whelmed. That's my medicine and a CLEAR QUE to Pete... "bring in the troops...Karen's about to lose it!"

It may take a glass of wine for me to admit defeat...but if I'm gonna be defeated, it should at least taste good! And with that, I'm going to celebrate my new found strength in sharing-the-load (if you will) by having a glass of wine with a good friend and fellow Mommy on my back patio as one Maria has cooed herself to sleep :)

This Mommy's Moment is about 72 hours over due and I'm taking two (moments) because I asked for the help!!! (just don't tell anyone, please).

Coordinating coordination...

So it's 10:30pm Wednesday night and this is my "mommy moments" for today.

I am a newly wed (I think, not sure how long that title lasts) who got married 13 months ago to my husband Peter. Much to our surprise, it took no more than one attempt to get pregnant and we came back from the honeymoon expecting our little bundle of Joy.

Maria was born March 8, 2010 at 6lbs 15oz and has been a complete blessing to our lives. It's amazing how she's opened my eyes and shown me love like I've never know existed. She is just learning to roll and giggle and I don't think I could be happier!

We bought our first house 14 months ago and spent the last year pouring money, sweat and even a few tears into it to make it our home. I think we've learned a house is complete but a home is never done...the list of "to do's" keeps growing :)

I returned to work as a sales rep for medical publications, 6wks ago. Talk about an adjustment period!!! I battled the thought of going back, and it's take great friends and time to get used to being away of my daugther - - but it does feel good to be back in "action" with more than "mom & wife" to define who I am. I could do without the stress - - but not the pay check!

All that being said - my true mommy moment of the day would have to be the 20 min workout I FINALLY did, this evening. I've been trying to find a way and time to get workouts in for the last 3 months. I'm not certain when I turned into my Mother - but it happened and I accepted it. I'm now one of those women that does the Denise Austin Video in my living room with my little 5lb weights I purchased from Target. I used to watch my Mom to Videos when I was a child and I never understood why she didn't just go the gym. Ha - karma - I get it now!

I'm sure my neighbors found my workout entertaining as well. I've gone from a gym rat to living room aerobics lady! And just how does the labor of child remove all coordination??? I mean, I've been out dancing a few times since Maria was born - and definitely feel she kept my "groove" - but seriously-- my coordination too??? Well... guess the neighborhood has a lot of free entertainment to follow.

Tomorrow brings kettlebells - let's hope I look a little less like a fish out of water with this effort.

That the case, it's nearly 11pm and time to hit the hay. Good night all - - this Mommy's had her moment!